“For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.” -Isaiah 43:19
At the moment, I’m slightly obsessed with two Bible verses. My sister sent me the verse from Isaiah the day I left my job. Somedays life feels like a wilderness, especially when we’re spending 24/7 consumed by a job that we just can’t come alive in, which basically translates to doing a lot of things we hate disguised as our career, or to quote the Fugees, killing me softly. Thankfully, we can take heart, because these funky seasons of life usually don’t last long…sooner or later, God does something new in our lives, like Isaiah talks about, he creates pathways in the wilderness and rivers in the wasteland.
“Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.” -Romans 12:2
The verse from Romans is spot on for the season I’m in right now. More often than not, everyone gets into patterns of complacency, unhealthiness, or just pure depression. It sort of comes with the territory of living in a fallen world. But we are called as Christians to live above the world. I’ve found it’s a lot easier to do this when we’re living closely to the Lord, in step with his will for our lives. For me, I wasn’t quite alone in the wilderness thirsting for water, but I was in a job that was slowly killing me. Sometimes being in a place like this can feel like the loneliest place in the world, and it’s certainly hard to see how God’s will is being done.
Another reason I love this verse, is because God talks about how he is renewing our mind – he is renewing you. The definition of renew is to make new, to restore, to replenish, to bring into being again…so as he becomes greater in our lives, we become less, and the more of him part allows us to test what is not only his good will, but his pleasing and perfect will.
For me, his will involved leaving my job – a job that I thought a lot of, perhaps even too much, and a job that instead of making me come alive, was slowly killing off the best parts of me.
A common saying on the Hill is: Fake it till you make it. After 5 years on the Hill, I barely recognized what I loved from what I was faking love for. Despite it not being the best fit for me, there are things I took away from my days on Capitol Hill that made me come alive. Those are the things I’m spending more time on these days.
For starters, I spend 60% less of my time holding my iPhone or staring at my computer. That’s significantly less than the 100% I spent doing both, sometimes at the same time, but I would still like to keep within the 30 percentile.
I’m also living out my days by exploring local coffee shops, planning travel to visit friends in fun places, writing more, reading (a little) more, cooking thought out meals for my husband, and slowly getting back into working out like a boss.
Perhaps, it’s the love for designs in my lattes or living out of yoga pants that keep me going, but these days, I’m feeling happier than I’ve ever felt before. I know this season of no makeup, lattes for lunch, and insane freedom from having a “real” job won’t last forever. Heck, with a latte a day it may not even last another week, but for now I’m basking in all things that make me come alive and renewed and taking note that the most successful people are those who are doing what they love – while being surrounded and supported by the ones they love. No more fake it till you make it mentality here.